Fears (a poem)

The world becomes alive
With a single word.
A word that was
Meant to be
Said.

Nothing can be worse than
What already happened.
Fighting fears was not
And could not be an
Option.

The sadness in our hearts
Shall always be real
Even if the tears
Will never
Fall.

A million words are shouting
Surrounding my head like
A song that never ends,
Take me a
way from
Here.

Death won’t end all of the pain
It only spreads it further
Through others’ hearts.
Childish fears still are
Fears.

We want a second chance
To undo our wrongs.
Don’t leave me here.
All alone in a void,
Dead.

Changing the World

Most times, people want to do something that will change the world. At the same time, we’re affected by all the changes. Some changes are good, some changes are bad.
But the thing is, nothing can stay the same after long periods of time. Yes, some things do last forever, but there are small changes, of course. Some changes are for good, some for bad, as I said.
But one problem I went through as I grew was accepting the changes. It’s hard to look at something and know it won’t be the same. But it’s okay, because we have our memories, and as long as we have that, nothing can truly be lost.

And about making your mark on the world. . .well, whatever you want to do, you should try it. I’ve heard from a wise person that “you only regret things that you don’t do.” Personally, I see that two ways, because if you did something, you didn’t do the opposite thing, so then you’re always not doing anything, but. . .I might get to that later.
The point is, if you never try something, you never know what will happen. There were countless times in my life when I wondered that if I did one thing instead of another, my life would probably be changed drastically.

Wow, I don’t know if I got off-topic there.

Don’t let the changes affect who you are completely–they may change you or give you different opinions, but don’t get swept off by the current, find your anchor and stay strong.

I have no idea if made any sense here. o.o’

Good day!

Catch Your Breath/Keep Going Forward

So, earlier today, I was at church, listening to the sermon, and it was about running the race of God (but because probably not all of the readers here are Christian, I won’t go into detail about the religion), and I realized, the preacher was right. We can’t just give up in our race when we fall down. When we run out of breath, it’s okay to pause, but don’t give up completely.

You know, races aren’t all about winning. Most races are about reaching the end. If the race was really hard, wouldn’t it be satisfying just to reach the end? Wouldn’t that be an award itself?
Yes, it is great to win the grand prize, but sometimes, people set their goals too far and they never reach them. It’s like making yourself reach the top of Mount Everest without any training. It takes work to reach something, it’s not like climbing up the stairs. To reach Mount Everest, all the way to the top, you have to have smaller goals, and sooner or later, you’ll be strong enough to reach your goals.

But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t dream big–just don’t pressure yourself if you can’t reach your goals in your first try. It’s okay if you mess up every once in a while. Don’t be hard on yourself, and don’t let others push you down. Taking baby steps to your goal instead of giant leaps is better than not moving at all. It’s like that old saying, “Don’t run before you learn how to walk.”

Dream big, and try your best!

Put on some headphones and listen to the music.

There are days when everything goes wrong.
Like today, for me.
Today, I got in trouble when it wasn’t my fault. I accidently cursed in front of my friends (I don’t know how that happened, though). Everyone’s been blaming me and stressing me out.

But through the years, I’ve learned something.
“Put on some headphones and listen to the music.”
It’s the best thing you can do when you’re angry, or upset, or sad. Music is an escape from the world. And it can help you realize…that maybe you’re not alone in this world. Maybe there are other people in this world who know how you feel. Maybe–just maybe…
You’re not as horrible as you might think you are.

What I hate is how some people say that music isn’t good, especially rock or pop music. I disagree. I mean, some lyrics can be disturbing, but the music I love the most is the music that shakes you, the kind of music that no matter what, you can’t tune it out.
As if it’s trying to reach out to you unlike people who just let you fall.

It’s sort of strange–the things we hate can help us. I used to hate rock music, or anything like that. But now…I realize it is actually something to believe in.

You know, I also hate how people think crying is being weak. Okay, I admit, when you’re crying over small things, or things that don’t really matter, then that’s just…childish. But the people who cry over things that can never come back, things that should never be gone, they are the ones who can remember. They are the ones who can realize that some things gone can’t come back.
In short, the people who cry are not weak. The people who don’t show any affection or sadness are the ones who weak.
After all, crying is hard to do after so many tears are shed already.

Again, I don’t know if I expressed my thoughts correctly, but I guess I’ll go post this now before changing my mind.

So much for a happy ending.

Let’s face it, life is not full of happy endings. And we shouldn’t expect that.

There are three things I hate that some people think:

#1: They believe that there will always be a happy ending, no matter what, blah blah blah.
#2: They believe that there’s nothing bad happening after there is a happy ending. Hello? This is the real world. Happy endings are actual endings.
#3: When people believe there are absolutely no happy things in the world because there has been nothing good happening to them.

Let me get this straight. Yes, there are bad things happening in the world. Yes, we will suffer. Yes, we will be hurt by our close friends and people we don’t even know. But that doesn’t mean the world is full of hate.
Happy endings may not always happen. But happy things do. Small things can still be good, and make people happy. You don’t need to save a child from being run over by a car, or find a cure for cancer to make people happy.
Horrible things happen over and over again. But it’s okay. You know, ’cause “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” But we can stick through all this.

Maybe I’ve expressed my feelings about happy endings in the wrong way in this post. But I hope you understand.
I hope you can have a happy ending, though.

Those balls of gas in the sky called stars.

One time, I read in my science book that stars are actually so many different colors. You know, blue, red, and other colors. But the part of our eyes that see when it’s dark is too weak and the stars too far way to see the different colors, so it all looks dull, silver and grey. And not just that. If you live in the city, you can’t see as many stars.

Whenever something horrible happens, we can’t see anything good happening. What happened to the old quote, “From every big bad comes a little bit of good”? Maybe, in some part of your head, you can see the good, but you don’t acknowledge it.
We can see the stars, but we can’t see the whole thing.
We can feel so many feelings, but we “can’t” feel the happiness the others are feeling.

No.

We do feel something, even if it’s something small. Be happy that you still feel something, and you aren’t empty. People aren’t happy with what they have. But you should be. You should be happy that you’re still alive. Think of all the things you can still do.

A problem we all have is that we’re self-centered sometimes. Or maybe we’re trying to help someone, but we’re not listening to the person we’re trying to help. But remember, the world doesn’t revolve around you. Yes, you are a normal person. But yes, you can still do something with your life.

Don’t discriminate yourself for being so bad at whatever you do. If you’re trying, you’re doing good. If you’re not trying, then okay, then maybe you’re not doing really good. But you have to do your best. Even if your best might not the best out of everyone else, it’s what you did, not what some other person did. What you made, you made.

Believe in the things you can’t see clearly. Because they are there.